It doesn't take Luke long to pick up on where this is going and he listens with rapt attention, absently eating his breakfast as Reid speaks. He's thought about their future himself more than a few times, considered what they might do together beyond the scope of sharing a home. Ever since he was old enough to realize what it meant to be a family, to love someone and marry them and raise children, Luke has wanted that. He realizes sometimes he's wanted it to the point of desperation, that asking Jocelyn to marry him when they were still just children themselves -- and when she was married to Valentine -- had been a clutching, pathetic attempt to cling to something he'd never really had. His own family had broken apart long before he was even able to make real memories of them and he's wanted one of his own so badly for such a long time that he realizes all his attempts at finding one haven't been for the best.
But then he'd met Reid. Suddenly everything had slowed down and for the first time in his life, he'd been able to appreciate everything he had, every little moment of their experiences together without worrying about holding on so tightly for fear of losing it again. He'd crushed Jocelyn, smothered her in his need for family, he sees that now, but he also sees it's because he hadn't trusted her. After Valentine, trust had been so hard to come by, after Amatis had broken his heart, it had felt next to impossible. With Reid it's always been so simple. Right from the start, he's been able to trust him without the slightest sliver of fear, and so in the past few weeks and months he's allowed himself to consider the future and what it might mean for the two of them here in Darrow.
Of course it's Reid who finds the courage to speak about it, though. It's always Reid who has that unending source of bravery Luke can't seem to access himself, and he doesn't resent it in the slightest. He finds it inspiring, it makes him love Reid even more than he had the moment before, knowing that his boyfriend, at the end of it all, will always be the hero. Luke might be the warrior, he might be trained to fight and protect, but it's Reid who chose it. Luke was born into this life, Reid picked it, and he shows Luke all the reasons why he's so well suited to it every single day.
He's still eating when Reid reaches out to take his hand, a piece of toast halfway to his mouth, then bitten into and chewed. His hand falls to the box of chocolates next and he takes one without thought, his gaze still on Reid's face, the act of eating more mechanical than anything else at this moment, his entire focus on his boyfriend, hearing his words and listening to what it is he wants to discuss. Chewing the chocolate, then swallowing, he finds he's nodding at the same time, because he doesn't even need to wait for Reid to finish speaking for him to know it's something he wants to talk about. It's a conversation he would very much like to have. Children are perhaps beyond them at this point and Luke is okay with that, he thinks he's found a very happy family here in Darrow, but marriage... that's still something they can consider.
"Yes," he says, then clears his throat and has to take a sip of his coffee again, his mouth suddenly dry even after having eaten the chocolate. "I'd very much like to discuss that." Reid isn't asking Luke to marry him now and he's quite comfortable with that, because part of what makes their relationship so easy is that they talk to each other first. They have these discussions, they make plans, and Luke knows nothing else would fit them quite so well. It's in their nature and it makes him comfortable, knowing they'll be able to talk about this, too. Like everything. "I've thought about it, too. I'm... yes. I'm very open to the discussion."
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But then he'd met Reid. Suddenly everything had slowed down and for the first time in his life, he'd been able to appreciate everything he had, every little moment of their experiences together without worrying about holding on so tightly for fear of losing it again. He'd crushed Jocelyn, smothered her in his need for family, he sees that now, but he also sees it's because he hadn't trusted her. After Valentine, trust had been so hard to come by, after Amatis had broken his heart, it had felt next to impossible. With Reid it's always been so simple. Right from the start, he's been able to trust him without the slightest sliver of fear, and so in the past few weeks and months he's allowed himself to consider the future and what it might mean for the two of them here in Darrow.
Of course it's Reid who finds the courage to speak about it, though. It's always Reid who has that unending source of bravery Luke can't seem to access himself, and he doesn't resent it in the slightest. He finds it inspiring, it makes him love Reid even more than he had the moment before, knowing that his boyfriend, at the end of it all, will always be the hero. Luke might be the warrior, he might be trained to fight and protect, but it's Reid who chose it. Luke was born into this life, Reid picked it, and he shows Luke all the reasons why he's so well suited to it every single day.
He's still eating when Reid reaches out to take his hand, a piece of toast halfway to his mouth, then bitten into and chewed. His hand falls to the box of chocolates next and he takes one without thought, his gaze still on Reid's face, the act of eating more mechanical than anything else at this moment, his entire focus on his boyfriend, hearing his words and listening to what it is he wants to discuss. Chewing the chocolate, then swallowing, he finds he's nodding at the same time, because he doesn't even need to wait for Reid to finish speaking for him to know it's something he wants to talk about. It's a conversation he would very much like to have. Children are perhaps beyond them at this point and Luke is okay with that, he thinks he's found a very happy family here in Darrow, but marriage... that's still something they can consider.
"Yes," he says, then clears his throat and has to take a sip of his coffee again, his mouth suddenly dry even after having eaten the chocolate. "I'd very much like to discuss that." Reid isn't asking Luke to marry him now and he's quite comfortable with that, because part of what makes their relationship so easy is that they talk to each other first. They have these discussions, they make plans, and Luke knows nothing else would fit them quite so well. It's in their nature and it makes him comfortable, knowing they'll be able to talk about this, too. Like everything. "I've thought about it, too. I'm... yes. I'm very open to the discussion."